effort

it would be nice to get the same amount of effort you give out...

change

i am change resistant,

and that is why things were very hard for me this past week.

i was informed that i would be transferred to a new area.

that got me confused. 

and then i remembered that i passed a request for transfer to the OR (operating room) during the start of this year - on a whim.

on a freaking whim.

so really, it's all my fault.

i was supposed to start my OR duty today but the hospital had other plans.

census of admitted patients is really high, 

so they decided that they would open 9B and have a mismatched set of nurses run the area.

i start work in a new environment tomorrow.

oh what terror...

i wanted to cry during the last few hours of duty this morning because i wouldn't have my 5c family with me from now on.

i am change resistant,

and i know i shouldn't be.

i know this is an opportunity that a lot of people are willing to take on.

but for the moment, i refuse to belive in it.

to my 5c family,

i will miss you.

workdays will never be the same again...

addendum

recently added to my list of wants:

suelas

aren't they sweeeeeeeet???

and i want these too...

from schu...

it's heartbreaking to be broke...

don't ya think?

oh boy...

oh boy...

i'm in love again.

i've fallen victim to your charms...

i just have to have you...

just wait

a few more days till payday...

should i or shouldn't i?

nothing on you

"they might say hi, and i might say hey but you shouldn't worry about what they say. 

cause they got nothing on you baby..."

...

it feels so good to be back...

random thoughts on repeat...

my job can't sustain my vices

(shopping, eating out, and generally pampering myself).

lifestyle change or change of job?

 (good thing i don't have a credit card...

or else i'll end up like that becky chick in confessions of a shoppaholic)

oooohhhheeeemmmmggggeeee....

12 months to pay pa diay to ang akong 5 thousand pesos loan sa co-op???

and it's still my 3rd month...ka dugay ma impass uy...

i will exercise. i will exercise. i will exercise.

sooooooon...

annnnnnnnnd...

i will take my IELTS review more seriously...

my friend asked my why i'm so worried about the exam since she knows 

i'm a writer and somewhat a good speaker with excellent command of the english language...

getting a band score below 7...am scared of that...

and i lack money...

the freaking exam costs about 9 thousand...

that's a whole lot of clothes, shoes, bags and earrings i could buy ya know...

and an endless supply of coffee, m&ms and banana slush...

speaking of coffee...

hmmmmmm...

i should make myself a cup just about now...